it's funny how often i crave change but then when things circle right back to the start, i'm elated.  i didn't expect to end up right back here.  but i'm really happy this way. i thought i needed to escape my family for a while.  I thought they were dragging me down and that it was a huge weight i needed to chip off my shoulders.  but this weekend i hung out with casey, cj, mom, dad, the whole damn gang.  and it was frickin' fantastic!

we played catch, we wrestled, we laughed, we ribbed each other, we fought.  i couldn't have asked for more.  i needed to remember how much they ease my stress, even though they sometimes contribute.  screw it all, i'm happy with them, and i'm happier the more i acknowledge that.

i apologize, i know many of you figured this out years and years ago, but for me it's a revelation

"give us your weak and weary" (it's a paraphrase)

what a crock of shit

strange how empty it all seems.  thrilled to see the family and meet the sister's boyfriend but dying to get back home to the one i love. gotta get back on track. gotta get back in school and start doing the things i should do to finish so someday i can have a job i love...or at least the opportunity to have a diff job if i want.

i need an awakening..or a bath

trying to think of something vastly interesting to tell you about my life...

but it would have to be something you could relate to.  or something exciting and wonderful that you'd want to relate to, right? well right now my life story involves a lot of rain and a tiny checking account.  which should all change by friday

somebody is turning 21 tomorrow....hmmmmmmm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope it's absolutely fabulous and safe.  much love